I dreamt that I was at a random work party and it was someone’s baby shower. Apparently my toxic ex who I recently found out is in jail was there as well. He was casually apart of the party and everyone was friendly as if he was a coworker as well. I didn’t question him being there, I actually felt comfortable like it was the old times. I Eventually we went into a separate room with just us and it felt like we were back in routine of being affectionate with each other. Everything was okay until he showed me his phone screen where his baby was the screensaver and it made me feel awkward because he had his baby out of spite in my opinion after we broke up, knowing I wanted a kid with him. Suddenly I went from feeling happy to feel awkward to feel very sad. Then he showed me a second child and I felt even more upset that I left the room. Then i am randomly in another room with a girl who seemed to want to have sex and I was down but once we got to undressing, she said never mind and stated she didn’t think I was serious and surprised I was going to follow through with it. I felt rejection and suddenly woke up sad because I haven’t seen him in a year and a half. I’m not sure why now and I’m confused because consciously, I don’t miss him or want anything to do with him.
This dream may reflect unresolved emotions and internal conflicts regarding your past relationship with your toxic ex. The setting of a work party and baby shower may symbolize themes related to responsibility, connections, and new beginnings. Your ex's presence in the dream could represent lingering feelings of attachment or unfinished business with him. The feelings of comfort and routine in the dream may suggest a desire for familiarity and stability, even if it comes from a toxic relationship.
The imagery of his children on his phone screen may symbolize a sense of loss, unfulfilled desires, and jealousy. Your reaction of feeling awkward, upset, and sad when seeing his children could indicate your feelings of betrayal, longing for a family, and regret about how things ended between you.
The sudden shift to a situation of rejection and feeling unwanted by the other girl in the dream may reflect your subconscious fears of being rejected or not being taken seriously in new relationships or situations. This could also highlight feelings of vulnerability and low self-esteem following the past relationship.
Overall, this dream may be a way for your subconscious mind to process unresolved emotions, fears, and desires related to your past relationship. It could be a reminder to address any lingering feelings or conflicts from the past in order to move forward in a positive and healthy way. Consider reflecting on your current feelings about your ex and your past relationship to gain more insight and closure.